Ok, so I'm probably gonna get all emo for once on this, so if you don't like hearing whiny philosophies, I'd stop now. XD


So, you're talking on Yahoo to people, right? Friends, new friends, old friends, people you just met, an aquaintance, whatever. This is what the internet is for, after all. Connections.


But, that lonely, cut-off feeling you get when one of them gets offline.. its weird.

I've mentally attached myself to words, typed words on a screen with maybe SOME sort of font difference that makes the text unique. Its not like I really know the person, but i know a facet of them that they present to me, and I get hungry to see the whole jewel.

and I get sad. Because I know that i will never get to see most of these people face to face, and then I get clingy, hanging onto their every word that they say and saving and archiving what precious side of themselves that they saw fit to show me. Its easy to fall in love on the internet. I hate that. You don't see the person, so you don't judge them by face alone, but by the facet shown to you by their words.

I hate the internet sometimes. I hate it, and loathe it for what it makes me feel when no one is there to talk to, but I doubt that I could ever leave it. Friendships and relationships built by words mean just the same as equal to the ones made in face and contact...

Maybe that's what I'm craving right now. Contact. Touches and feelings from an individual that I can understand from words given to me by people over this common link.

DAMN do I sound selfish... Wanting my friends pay attention to me me me me me.

Alright, I'm done. I don't think it made any sense anyway...



I think this is the longest I've ever posted in a journal.